It's been a year

It has been a year since I have spoken more than a "hello" to her and its taken me that year to come to grips with these things...

ONE: The makeup of my family is completely different to what I grew up knowing.  TWO: My future children's relationship with their grandparents is forever altered.  THREE: This all happened not because of one thing that one of them did, this happened because of the build up of little things, that both of them did and said.  If it had been one big thing, things would likely be very different.  FOUR: Forgiveness is difficult.

If one is forgiven does that mean that they are now welcome back into your life?  Or can you forgive without letting them back in your life?  Can one forgive and then keep the forgiven at a distance because of the lack of trust?

Honestly, I'm not sure I will ever have very much to say to her or him for that matter again.  Hopefully, I can forgive one day very soon, but that will only be through God's grace.